The Fall of Atlas

by Bodi

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released 03 March 2013

Album & All Songs Published by Elephant Memories Publishing (ASCAP).
All Songs Recorded by Bodi at The Elephant Room - Fort Collins, CO & Libby, MT.
All Tracks Mixed by Graham O'Brien, Except:
Atlas, Epilogue, Clotho Mixed by Adam Krinsky.
Lachesis Mixed by Adam Krinsky & Bodi.
Parode and . Mixed by Bodi.
Atropos Mixed by Fytch.

Mastered by Greg Reierson at Rare Form Mastering, Minneapolis, MN.

Cover Artwork by Jason Pitman
Cover Coloration & Post by Dominic "Doctype" Sandoval
Album Layout & Artwork by Dominic "Doctype" Sandoval

Production:
Tracks 1, 3, 16 produced by Abstrakt
Tracks 2, 8, 10, 12 produced by Captain Midnite
Tracks 4 and 9 produced by Ill Pill
Track 5 produced by Lonely Giant Spaces
Tracks 6 and 15 produced by Bodi
Track 7 produced by Fytch
Track 11 produced by Doctype and Bodi
Track 13 produced by Doctype
Track 14 produced by Emancipator
Track 17 produced by Figure

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Bodi Fort Collins, Colorado

Bodi, formerly Alexipharmic, has been making music since he started watching YO! MTV Raps in Cookie Monster pajamas. He has toured the United States several times, made tracks with Eyedea, P.O.S., Emancipator, Budo, Kristoff Krane, and performed with many more. 50% of all his album and merch sales are donated to Mercy Corps' relief efforts in the Congo. He loves you, them, and sometimes himself. ... more

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Track Name: Prologue ft. Lotte Kestner
Verse 1: Bodi]
I’m getting older and I hate it
Life’s a game, and I’ve already played it
And I’ve debated throwing in the towel
To a fate already written to a reaper on the prowl, but
I can’t close my eyelids
Without faces that allowed me to write this
Looking back with a smile and a nod
And the silhouettes of you, my reminders of God
And no question, the reflection I see’s
Made up of you, there’s no me
Without a history of loss and sacrifice
Met with a strength that defies any afterlife
And that’s running through my veins
One day I will be the same
Fade as a piece of the puzzle
Until then smile in the beautiful struggle…

[Verse 2: Bodi]
When I was little I would die to grow up
Now here we are and I’m begging it to slow up
Watch dreams and reality collide
Spend time picking up the pieces of this sky
Try to reconcile what I become
With what I hoped I’d be when the journey begun
And know I’m passing through not lasting to forever, true
To find a way to happiness it’s better late than never, you
Don’t know what you got til it’s gone
Sometimes miss right til you meet wrong
But I can read the past in my palm
And find solace in the storm before the calm
Nose to the grindstone until I’ve grown breathless
Shoulder to the wheel of diameter endless
The fight song rings the sweet sound
So I’m lifting up my voice with the darkness falling

[Hook: Lotte Kestner]
Down, down, down
I’m never falling
I’m never falling
Down,down,down

[Verse 3: Bodi]
I'm still in love with my best ex-girlfriend
Reverends telling how a bloody mess world ends
Past loves getting different last names
Mapped goals, now a film's black frame
Roll the credits, but never get to edit out
The ugly parts
And rusted hearts
And stumble starts
This struggle sparks
A thunderous march, an ending unknown
Fist to the heavens, sending up a poem
Grandpa’s on his death bed, grandma’s fighting tears
Hands held recalling all the best of hiding years
Dad’s hair’s gray, mom’s mind’s slipping
See each other once or twice a year and time’s missing
And the people that I know become the people that I knew
Because the feeble life we drew upon the sky is passing through
Testament to the magic found
In the pulling of the tide til the waves come crashing down

[Hook]

[Bridge: Lotte Kestner]
If that doesn't wind you up
The road isn't long enough
And that's what's running through my veins
One day, I will be the same

[Verse 4: Bodi]
Cody just call and told me Mike died
I can hardly see through my watercolor eyes
He inspired me since I learned to write
Until my ink dries he will always be a guide
At 25 try to cope with the fact
As the days pass more I love aint coming back
That's the come and go and being caught in undertow
From the drop into this show to the final slumber, so
It's time to go always sooner than expected
There's not a part that will ever be perfected
Still we march with our hands, connected
Self in the iris of everyone else reflected
- and tested always
But all waves reach the shore
Return to the source from where we began
Land on our feet, higher we stand now
Welcome to the rise and the fall
And the journey through the gallows to the hallowed winding halls
And all along the story through the darkness
The crowning glory and the name on the park bench
It's a tale of triumphs and trials
Courage for the fear and tears with the smiles
And miles to go before I sleep
And miles to go before I…sleep

[Bridge 2: Lotte Kestner]
The one thing I can say about
The way the time runs out
Not gonna save my thoughts, I'm
I'm gonna say them now
The things I want to see
The ones I care about
The way I feel for you
I'd love to spell it out
The memories of every
One who has led me here
The things I carry with me
Aren't going anywhere
Track Name: Hercules ft. M.anifest & Team Dharma
[Verse 1: Bodi]
Not every storm cloud’s got a silver lining
But you gotta have the darkness to see the sun shining
And sometimes shit just happens
And all you can do is control your reaction
It’s all passin, the beautiful and tragic
It’s an act of vanishing magic
When lines in the hourglass sand are drawn
And you can’t take a picture, it’s already gone
This goes beyond carpe diem
Now’s all you have til the eyes closed leavin
Aint always meanin in the plotline schemin
Too busy breathin that the truth is make believe in
Yourself, but, take the body shots
Fight like a bull in a china shop
It’s never gonna stop
Life is a test until the quiz goes pop to stand

[Hook: Bodi]
Up, there’s no shame
We all fall down like drops of rain to
Stand, up, I do the same
May forget the face, but they won’t forget the name when you stand
(2x)

[Verse 2: Bodi]
Some days you’re the pigeon, in others the statue
But you can’t control what attacks you
Black blues how you’re gonna be left
Sometimes. You can’t stay on your chest
Never expect a hand to pull you vertical
Vertigo riddles, you can’t take it personal
When people would rather see you fall than fly
Why you think there’s so many bullet holes in night’s sky?
Shootin stars, they wish on, cause they don’t wanna be
The only victim of the prison of gravity
See kids rip their wings out their vertebrae
Just to stick below the clouds with the other birds of prey
Cause that aint freedom
Freedom is refusin the bullshit they’re feeding
Making the most of the world before leaving
And marching to the sunset no matter when you’re leaving to stand

[Hook]

[Verse 3: M.anifest]
Yo, see, I go hard on this journey down for that dope sound
Not an attorney, but legally I stay bound
To the words I utter, I don't stutter now
Even though a legion of [?] trying to bring me down
The road less traveled, the challenge unravels
And the last straw coulda broke the back of the camel
I could swim across the English Channel
Emerge dry as a drub and then put on my flannel
Pants, or maybe trousers, yep, the beat arouses
Moving on strong make the weak say wowzers
We build houses filled with many dreams and goals
Some moments sugar free like sweet and lo
Still we on a roll trying to make the honor roll
An African noble and admirable
I could put my own soul as collateral
Fo sho, I pay calm on what I owe
Track Name: Moros ft. K.Raydio
[Verse 1: Bodi]
At ten, I thought about severing my wrists
Not because I wasn’t loved – it just is what it is
Learned life’s love since I was a kid
Grew to realize father time was the bitch
It’s all good, sky holds fist
Building castles in the clouds brick by brick
Foundation on the ground inch by inch
Crossing off my laundry list with each wish
Chin and chest both positively charged
So there aint a thing wrong with taking some scars
March forward til the sun’s in my hands
Stand on my own two, manifest the promised land, and
I will never give up/I got a lust for the minds I touch
Fight from beginning til the bubble goes bust
Regardless of the cards I’ll produce a royal flush, cause
Enough gold in the yellow brick road
Couldn’t get me to fold - I’m goin all in
A mission to be giving back more than I’ve been given
Living in a world where too many stop livin'
At the very beginning, so they don’t start swimming
Water’s fine, you just gotta get in
The shoulders of giants, blind Osiris
Let the Iris find this Midas life in front of your eyelids

[Hook: K.Raydio]
Growing up I wished I could’ve been somebody else
I was too scared of myself, but I know
If I could change a thing, it would be for somebody else
Because it’s all that I know

[Verse 2: Bodi]
At ten, I decided god wasn’t in the sky
But that don’t mean I didn’t think it was alive
I saw it in the eyes of every human being
All of em angels even if the bell don’t ring
I was a snot nosed kid
Saw a lot of cheap shots, took em on the bridge
And try though I did, they often got the best of me
But giving up is the key for disaster’s recipe
I could never be free
Til I seized destiny sitting right in front of me
Picked up a pen and started on these manuscripts
Oratories of this captain’s battleships
When the storm came to sink my vessel
The life boats were scripted in pencil
Successful only if I provide light
To the little kids hearing the words I write
They say the sky’s the limit
Well if it is, lets stretch it to infinite
And give our all from the day that we crawl
Enough strength to shatter that wall
Impossible isn’t in the vocabulary
Those who say it is are mad that they carry
A shoulder with a chip so they fix to rip you quick
Give a gift and lift em up until the sky is kissed

[Hook]
Track Name: Icarus ft. Fashawn
[Hook: Bodi]
And I’m, fly flyin away
And I, I don’t know what to say
And I’ll, be home someday
I hope you understand and stay
And I’m, fly flyin away
And I, I don’t know what to say
And I’ll, be home someday
I hope you understand my ways

[Verse 1: Bodi]
So I start to pack my bags and she's begging me to stay around
But, how you gonna keep a rocket on the ground?
Speed of sound I'm movin, leave this town superhuman
Dreaming snoozing, breathing losing, cruising like a missile movin'
Til I - reach the summit, and start to catch my breath
A part of me's depressed, I ain't on to the next
Steps to the door of the double wide, my troubled eyes
She catch, and says, "you only hit the road to run and hide
How you think I feel, bed half-freezing
Half the time you're here, then you're thinking of leaving
Coulda kept the kid, made you stay at home
But didn't have the means alone to raise her on my own
Just go - know I've always been beside you
You're the one that chose to leave me behind you
Death is what you chase, life is the race
Rocketman, hope you know it's lonely out in space…"

[Hook: Bodi]

[Verse 2: Fashawn]
Yeah, I tell her to stop her crying
It's like she's on another plane where I'm not the pilot
Must I remind you this is love it ain't rocket science
But it's just as complicated and hard to digest, reason why I'm stressed
Sitting here alone
All she wanna hear is I'm home, instead it's my iPhone
Even when we're together we're on different time zones
She keeps my mind spinning like a cyclone
While I'm gone she replied why don't I bring her along
Or put a ring on her arm, time to ring the alarm
When she think I'm out chasing skirts
I'm stressing out, gaining clout, trying to shake this Earth
Besides the fact I'll be gone til September
Taking off by December
She gon' need a nigga to keep her warm for the Winter
And me, I'll be packing my luggage for another day
Out of space baby, please don't give my love away

[Verse 3: Bodi]
Ok. Ok-k-k-k
Cat's in the cradle and the silver spoon
And this little boy grew to a man on the moon
Sooner than I know I'm back home from the road
Stole a part out my soul so it's easy come, harder go
Put the key inside the lock
But it's not really working, turn it counter to clock
Is this the right spot? Knock a couple times
Some dude opens up that I don’t recognize, “Hi"
"Who the fuck are you, what you doin in my house?"
He says, "You hit the road and your girl got a spouse."
Sock him in the mouth, barrel through the door
My new ex comes in, her boy on the floor
She says, "You couldn't do it and you knew it all along
When I needed you, you were ghost and gone"
I tell her, "never again" she whispers, "you're wrong
Do what you do and put your message in a song…"
Track Name: Clotho
[Verse 1]
Alright - this is how it starts

Spark from the flame lit between two hearts
Emerge from the dark, then march to the light
One way ticket, to reunite with the night
And every day's a lottery
Stoned when our number's called or win another sunrise
One wise lesson I learned the hard way's
Live like the end will come today, because it could
And woulda should will do no good, pushing daffodils
What we stood for will outlive our passing thrills
And maybe it's true
Wisdom's learning how to make due with what we lose
Which is everything eventually, everyone we'll ever see
Every single destiny's ending and just a memory
What we leave behind's the after life that exists
Birthday candles blown out, every wish
Every year put together couldn't save us from the tethers
Of the sisters of fate deciding when to clip the feathers
So forever is now - until the fight song
Fades, goodnight, but live to keep the lights on

[Hook]
This is our moment
Our one shot to be legend

And nothing exists but this second

All we can do is decide how to spend it
(2x)

[Verse 2]
And this is how I'm spending mine?
Moving back into the basement of my parent's house at 25?
Boxes in the attic of the album I aint sold
So the music turns to static on a quest to make gold
Self deprecating, hating on myself, debating
Whether self-medicating is an option for the taking
Waiting round and breaking down as often as my car dies
Only 5 years ago I dreamed about the stars lives
That I idolized and knew
I could make my once upon a time
 come true
But then I got older with regrets to undo
And a wishlist that grew longer than Rapunzel's hair
Or the time it'd take to make the sun blue
Or the cow to jump moon
Or to stand in the Amazon and run through
Or to learn how to beat Bruce Lee at Kung Fu
Time to give up or try some new, you
Can never make a change standing in place, or make
Lines on the face erase without being fake
The greats weren't great in the amniotic fluid
The struggle they embraced, it gave a shot at pushing through it
And they knew if they could do it then the truest form of spirit
Grew without illusions of some Druids coming near it
Cause it's clear if we depend on magic for our metamorphosis
This is walking dead as a living corpse exist
And I would spit on the graves of those who made me who I am
If I don't take the shots to be the best me that I can
And stand on my own two
While I'm 6 feet above the world that I hold to
"The old you's dead's" what my inner voice said
And the phoenix only rises when the old bones shed
"The new you's now" time to get up, get out
Get moving, and make your past proud

[Hook]
Track Name: Parode
[Verse 1]
The rain's coming
Storm's chasin, I'm not running
I'm not done, and, my head's down
Gaze on my feet floatin off the ground
No sound, eyes closed
Touch now, and I'd be free
And I'm so tired that I can't sleep
Look to the sky and die to count sheep, but
I'm not fallin
I'm slippin, but, I'm not fallen
And I can hear the wolves callin
Factory of shadows, see em all crawlin
Stand tall in the stars silhouettes
Hard little breath in these carved whittled steps
Far from the rest and scarred from the test
Start to the sunset west, but I’m swept away
And I can’t stay
But I don’t wanna leave, just breathe
I’ll see you in my dreams
You could have it all if you just believe
Everything you need is anything that is
Anything that was is dust the past gives
Everything’s eventual, change is perpetual
Stained with the fingerprints of ghosts, now your sentinels
Let it go, I’ll be right here
Always I’ll catch you, live with no fear
And no shadow of a doubt
With the fire inside you, just let it out
Track Name: Atropos
[Hook]
Never will fall, never will fly
Never be able to make it alive
Never will know when it's my time to go
But until that day shows I will open my eyes
Never will crawl, never will dive
Never be able to see my demise
Ending is up to the fates to decide
And I leave no regrets in the shadow behind
(2x)

[Verse 1]
This is life
Rage against the dying of the light
Balance on a tight-rope, threads, slowly sliced with a knife
Find a way to navigate the mines and find happiness
Defined as cutting ties with fear and living where our passion is
Here, now, the moment's quickly passin'
And no matter what we do our life is held ransom
Asking what the meaning is, but we're the one whose questioned
Lessons learned and finding answers, pass em on is our redemption
Never restin, when moments test our poise
Try to knock us down with suffering we can't avoid
We make our choice, bow or keep our eyes up
Give in, give up, and wave the flag or make our tragedy a triumph
It's rarely easy, but truth is that we're all in need of the grind
To give it purpose, what's freedom if we never know the bind?
And there's no shackle, til sound of the gallows and gavel go strike
Except what we give power to
Nothing holds us from our flight
Unless we let it.

[Hook]

[Verse 2]
This is beautiful - even when it isn't
And my limits make me stronger when I choose to fight against em
No longer, and honor truth that I wander along the route
On my own and I water roots when I'm showin how to lace boots
And keep going, never slowing down, holding on until I've found
What I live and what I fight for, what I'd gladly give my life for
When I find my why I can handle any how
I can sacrifice blood and sweat from the brow
Freedom's the acceptance that the work is always endless
And don't let this second guess the seconds spent until the day I exit
Left or stage right - no time for stage fright
No lines to memorize, just do my best to improvise
In disguise I reside if I wear a mask of lies
To try to hide my frightened eyes
Blinded by the stars I idolize
And try to be like
Rewrite this foolish path to roam
A sleep walking dead zombie living in the catacombs
Destiny is only shown to those who've got the strength to face
Their demons straight and see em break
Beneath the weight of love we make
Em free, and let go of waiting for the crystal ball
Back against the wall will conquer nothing if you think you're small
You are, but legends mark their own tarot cards
Count the blessings till the endings dripping bone marrow hard
It will be, again and again, but everything, everyone, everywhere passes
And dreams are made awake, not waiting on a mattress
Until we catch our train, moment-to-moment we capture and master this
No Lazarus, there's no ever after after this
Track Name: Prometheus ft. Cas One
[Verse 1: Cas One]
They want fire? Well let em burn
Ashes in my urn, past the passion of my work
Like the passage of my journey made me a new Earth
Fill it all to fill my cup and I won't ever give it up
A man of wounds and cuts, reshaped, and made new
And I paid dues with worn shoes walking on the lava
Like no longer am I ever on or past the pity parties
Fire in my arteries, make the world a part of me
Vice versa, line the words that take the curtain off the person
Feeling certain they determine won't burn up
Oh, ain't no quitter in my go-getter
Switch-hitter, bitter pill swallowed, I know, I know
I won't ever go home
Made my suit of armor out the road
Now I feel there ain't nowhere else to go
All the pieces of my soul got a reason that they glow
I'm a phoenix in the snow, these chains will never hold

[Hook: Bodi & Cas One]
Take the dark out the light
Bring a fire to the night
Let the demons dance, I’m never giving up the fight
If it’s wrong make it right
Til I’m gone I’ll ignite
An inferno in my eyes and it’s never gonna die

[Verse 2: Bodi]
I’ve only got two options
Keep walking or dream on watching
As the world pass by and I’m sitting here talking
About a change coming, it won’t if I’m stopping
Aint no time to reload
It’s a one shot deal, kid, welcome to the show
Used to go victimize bruises and lumps
And, stand there lookin off the cliff like jump
But when the camera roll go flicker
Better make the most of the final motion picture
No time to waste bein pissed at the cards I was dealt
Blamin others for the scars I felt
Part of myself hid the belt, givin welts
Burned without seeing other hearts I melt
Cheating ex-girlfriends the reason I got no trust
People doubting me the reason I got no guts
And no glory but the stories mine alone
I can revise it fore I write it in stone
Fire, re-ignite it, light the path shown
Walk among the constellation map til I’m back home
Backbone’s no stronger through the slouching
Head hangin, finger pointin, or the doubting
So what you sittin on? What you aimin at?
Fate’s trapped and it’s my turn to take it back

[Bridge: Bodi]
If I can’t make it out alive
Then I will leave it all behind
And hold my head and chin up high
Until the day I waive goodbye
And fade into the other side
And find a final piece of mind
My fears will never be my guide
And I will never hide

[Verse 3: Bodi]
So let’s strip away the bones and the skin
And the old jaded grin
And the grim simple truth that I won’t begin again
And win or lose don’t matter none, when it’s all said and done
The breath in the lungs, and steps that I’ve run
Go up and away, and set with the sun
I’m left with the one thing left to decide
What type of man I’ve become and soul that I was
Can hold to a grudge or shoulder and trudge
A molder of boulder til run out of blood
But I aint waiting for the perfect shot
Draw, fire, aim, til the fucking wheels fall off

[Verse 4: Cas One]
And the deal's all off, kid, built the house alone
Cross my motherfucking bones on that long walk home
No thrones, no hopes, no idea where the story goes
Skeletons on my road journey got some soul
Behold that pale horse that burns the house down
The ghost of my former self now, kneel down
For the world now, like the motherfucking crowns
Got pushed down the queen's mouth, bleed on out

[Hook]
Track Name: Kratos ft. Murder Dice
[Verse 1: Bodi]
Until the day I'm pushing daffodils, I have to fill my cup
And trust in love that busts the seams until my chest erupts
And plucks my heart into a symphony that won't give up
Ashes to magic and bones to dust
I love this crust I'm standin on, until dawn sings a tragic song
And when it's gone I'll move along, but I won't find a greener lawn
Than what's here atop this sphere - we're movin through the years
Fear of living now and here, when life pass, don't steer clear
Crack a beer and give yourself a toast
It's the journey of a lifetime - you play the host
Eternally a peasant, that's cause I go for broke
In hopes of painting stars in sky, to pierce the smoke
And I can't die, life and I have chosen to elope
I wrote an epitaph in snares and claps to get myself to cope
And in the ever after I can't get myself to float
Unless I'm giving other children safety vests of hope

[Hook: Murder Dice]
Until the sun burns out in the sky
I'm that goddamn thorn in your side
Fire in my eyes, you can't see
I would save you if you'd just let me


[Verse 2: Bodi]
The fact is my happiness comes after matching Lazarus
In craftiness I practice this static blasting magicness
And match it with an ass to kiss from lady luck on mattresses
Cause rappin is my stackin chips, and manifestin happiness
Ask me if my passion is available for purchase
My assurance is it's furnished with nothing but the worthless
Grab a surface you can work with, paint a picture perfect
When the hearse is perched with purpose - you have to give the verdict
Judge and jury, have mercy, we hurry to the grave
And sell our souls along the way so road to gold is paved
Stake my claim inside this frame that we proclaim's a masterpiece
Horns on half these battered thieves and halos on these master chiefs
Who seek a piece of heaven, reaching for that preacher's blessin
I see angels every day that I go to the sev-eleven
Steppin through the paradise, god don't have a hand in scriptin
We spread our wings when we give out a hand for liftin
Track Name: Valkyrie ft. Dice
[Verse 1: Bodi]
I was 8 years old when I first killed a man
It was either me or him with machete in my hand
I'd tell you more but you wouldn't understand
A grown man once a lost boy of Sudan
Who ran past the devil's lines drawn in the sand
And god never had a part in the plan
.Saw the sky fall on my own land
Never learned to crawl before I had to stand up and run
On horseback they came to my village
Killed dad, raped mom, looted and pillaged
Held a gun to my sister and said that they'd shoot
If I didn't join their cause as a troop, so
What could I do? I remained loyal
As we moved north where someone had oil
They kept saying that the enemy was them
Khartoum, UN, JEM, but
All I wanted to do was survive
And one day see my little sister's shining eyes
So I die on this side of the knife
And that's life…(that's life…that's life…that's life...)

[Hook: Ebenezer Children's Orphanage]
I am beautiful
I love you
I am beautiful
Uhuru (Freedom)

[Verse 2: Dice]
Happy family, I remember my siblings and how we play
There was so much love til my daddy passed away
That's when mommy changed, sad mommy stayed
Crying all day, yelling with her voice raised
Drunk in a daze eyes glazed, lost in deep thought
Sold me to a strange man just to pay the lease off
Beaten and raped by any who payed the three bucks
They hurt me mommy, burnt me mommy, left me locked
Sold my body, lost my soul, forgot free thought
One after another, disease and suffering please god
Take this pain away, this is not the life I want
I'd rather die here than lie here with these Johns
My clothes tattered, my spirit broke shattered
No man alive can save me from what has happened
Police captains take no action
Pockets have been fattened, American greed has them
I miss you mommy.
Will anyone ever love me again?

Hook

[Verse 3: Bodi]
Six months old in the slums of Kibera
But wait - let me paint it clearer
Millions like me living in tents
Paper bag bathrooms thrown across the fence
An orphan - both parents in the grave
Mom and dad both victims of AIDS
I never knew em but their blood is in me
Fate sewn closed spelled HIV
A woman with a heart as big as the ocean
And the sun took me in, made her house open
To me and thirty kids in the same position
Die to make a livin in the only conditions
We've ever known, never shown any sad tears
Truth is I'm thankful just to be here
Even if the odds are I won't make it
To 10, for granted, my time I'll never take it
And when the end comes with a smile and a nod
Is how I'll reunite with my parents and god
My name's Kefa, this is my story
You may forget me, but please don't ignore me
Track Name: Anagnorisis
[Verse 1: Bodi]
Never let em down? Now how's that sound?
Who you gonna hold if you can't see the ground?
How you gonna stand up if you were built to fall?
How you think you're gonna soar, hoping you're not gonna stall?
All alone. Born to roam
Borders sewn off from each other, call it home
Go and try to mend the sand, but who you think will give a damn
Let the waves break, and
Let the tide take, you
Out of the race, erased
You escape to-
Night, underneath moon
Light, you can see whose
Might's gonna reach to
Heights you can't leap to
Fright, that's what keeps you
Right, where you think you
Like, but the flight-fight eats you alive
And you can't decide whether you should speak or stand or run
Or hold your tongue or reach the end, defend or lend a hand or gun
And you've become everything you said you wouldn't
And you can't hold the world because you never understood it
Crooked little smile that you aim
At the man in the mirror framed where you place the blame
Foolish, little useless, simple-minded you believed
That you could breath and change the world before it came your time to leave
And see the hands of fate and stack the deck against it, it's naive
That you could call a bluff on lady luck with ace inside her sleeve
Who you think you are, talking to your shadow?
Try to save a world, locked in a civil battle
Gallows overpopulated, preaching to the congregated
Converted is how sense is made
Of flags turned to army blankets
Weightless, cause you can't hold your own
And soon all you are is a name on a stone
Cold case close, tagged toes, made those choices
Solo, maybe you should listen to the voices
Rattling around inside of your head
Who you think will care in the end when you've fled?
Less self or selfish, it's high-time you learn
As the flames rage, you'll watch em all burn
Track Name: Hades
[Verse 1: Bodi]
Well well…its been a minute
Since we kicked it, how's your life? Have you found out how to live it?
Are you waiting for some footsteps to follow to begin it?
Have you finally realized you're a normal dude with limits?
Alex: Who you kiddin? You ain't a kid no more
So your'e only growing older, what you got that ego for?
Seeking more validation than a parking lot
So you're taking more cuts than a barbershop
And um...It's kind of hard not to judge you
Pushed away almost everyone whose loved you
Then you run to your pen and pad confessional
Put on the headphones, and crank up the decibels
Go between heart on sleeve and treating words like ventricles
And acting like you got the biggest pair of brass testicles
What you done to help the world you say you'd die for
A cyborg behind your glass house, eyesore
Who you think you save with these little rap records?
Acting like you're jesus in a world trapped lepers
Never know better than to sever connections
Tether those feathers to the ground for protection
Used to dream big now you don't get outta bed
Til the sun comes and it's half way to the end
Someday you'll give it all up finally your skin will go rust
Finding what little you trust now turns into dust
Ignore it all you want, it's the truth
Look into the mirror to your soul's window proof
The noose is growing tighter, you can try to wrestle me
But even as a fighter I will bring you down eventually
Down to your knees, how will you breathe
In gasps let it rattle, you think you'll win the battle?
Free them demons peep some freedom, leave em all behind don’t need em
Piece em like a puzzle read em, like a book and see em all shook up?
Nah I don't think so
Aim high swing low, sweet chariot rolls
Ruin what you’re touchin Mr. Rogue you’re turnin somethin
Into nothin it’s disgustin now you’re rushin to the finish line
Hook sinker – look deeper
You’ll see you’re nothin special just a bag of bones and chromosomes
A protozoan evolved and grown who made a home a page of poems
And make it known you fake it lone til date and name engrave the stone
What you think, I'm a devil on your shoulder?
If that's the case where's the other one to keep the order?
I'm in your head, in your brain, in your consciousness
You know there's only one way for stopping this
How about giving a Kalashnikov a kiss?
Or drawing an X with a knife across your wrist?
But wait - since you know I exist
You can see I'm not you and make me powerless, shit
Listen - I said listen to me
You can't shut me out
I will bring you down, I will bring you down now (yeah)
Don't go on a mission to see
The beauty that resides in the eyes of your neighbor
Or the love in your life that might be your savior
Or the reason you were born to spread your message onto paper
OK fine, you win this time, but
I'll see you later
I'll see you later
Track Name: Medusa
[Verse 1: Bodi]
I never thought I'd see the day when I'd be waking up
Next to you and see your open eyes, smilin makin love
Guess it's true angels float from heaven, there's a god above
Blessings too many for one man to count, it's you who pulled me through
The darkest days and carved a way for me to paradise
And I used to think my life depended on a pair of dice
Or fate or chance or dance with lady luck and then I felt your touch
And brushed with greatness that we make with faith and trust inside our clutch
And every day the sun was shinin, proved to me I'm not an island
Smilin like a little kid who would've been just fine with dyin
Cause I would've already lived inside a dream
Wouldn't need to see what the after life brings
Every day and every hour, every minute, every second
Every thought and every heartbeat, every moment made me breathless
That all left without saying goodbye
This is what it feels like to wish that you'd die

[Verse 2: Bodi]
I arrived back home a day earlier than I was supposed to
Surprise and propose to you/With the ring in my pocket
Your car in the driveway, to the door, unlock it
Palms sweaty, got your parent's blessing
Fumblin over words and how I'd pop the question
True love, with no second-guessing
In sickness and in health, from the living to the restin
Came to when I called out your name
But didn't hear an answer, all I heard was laughter
In the bedroom, soft music played
Tip toeing up, the mistake that I made
Was believing you loved me, and opening the door
You and your ex, your clothes on the floor
My heart and my head and my world split in two
Put the ring in the trash and, you never knew…

[Verse 3: Bodi]
Fuck you, and everything you ever said
You never meant, heartless, I wonder if you've ever bled
Or if you've got a hole where your spirit’s supposed to go
Don't got a soul
And mouth full of coal
And lies white as snow
Guess hell must've froze
Over - so you had to escape
And crawl to this surface, to shatter my faith
In a disastrous way that there's a different fate
For love than our lives, but I guess it all ends…
You tried to make amends, but I didn't see the point
If you're a demon devil dancing, greatest trick, and made your choice
And your bed, sleep in it, but I hope you never dream
All I have are nightmares of buying you a wedding ring
I would gave you everything and made god blue
Karma's got a bite like déjà vu
But I never knew it would happen so soon
To you, I hope this burns like the summer sun in June
See when the two of you got back together
I thought about killing myself, but knew better
Than to end it like that, and I wanted revenge
And to make you look evil in front of your friends
But I got a better plan when I was getting coffee and
I saw your man was with another woman, they were holding hands
So I grabbed the camera on my phone and started taking pictures
Til they got up, I followed quiet as a whisper
To a house, he looked around, and they went inside
And started fucking in the bedroom and didn't close the blinds
Have you figured the surprise in the envelope?
Go ahead an open it, this letter that I wrote
Was to show you what it felt like when you went and broke
My chest and my hope, and now you'll feel it, too
And now you know the truth, and I know it hurts
And I apologize that you got what you deserve
Track Name: Pandora ft. Sadistik
[Verse 1: Bodi]
I never meant to hurt you
No intent to bring you down or desert you
If I'd known the choice I made
The same that sends cats to their grave
Had given you everything you never wanted
I would’ve killed curiosity, I promise
But I let the monsters surface
Hope left closed, I'm looking for a purpose
I'd be the out cause if I could
Erase me with the flaws where I stood
Spend days working to correct
Everything left in the caves of my chest, I'm
Walking til my feet are broken, talking til my speech is golden
Knocking but the doors will open, only when my tongue is frozen
Hopin but I'm floatin never, wrote inside these storms I've weathered
Chokin on these smokin embers, cold as winter’s rose December
Feathers never on my back, see the snowfall fade to black
Grasp as the seconds pass, relapse into aftermath
Master class on fractured past, plaster caste to tragic mask
Laughing last disaster tracks me back to house of shattered glass
Crash down, but made no sound
Homeward bound through a one horse ghost town
Toast the ground that boasted a crown
Found broken bottles hollow like regrets I model
El Diablo’s probably coming for me next
So my steps burn shadows in the valley of death
I guess it's for the best that I move on now
Bow then it's curtains and go and join the crowd
How will this end, or does it really ever?
Coda with the stars, my atoms are forever
Remember that we sew with the same cloth
That we're cut from, so remain when the frame's lost
Remain when the frame's lost
Remember that we sew with the same cloth
That we're cut from, so remain when the frame's lost
Track Name: Lachesis
[Verse 1: Bodi]
You rise then you fall
You fly till you crawl
And you can't stand on your own two
Unless somebody holds you up
So give up
So give up

[Verse 2: Bodi]
Think of jumping overboard cause life has given no accord
Sink and slice and cut the cord and sever ties with what you stored
And you adored and move on toward the edge is just a little more
What you holding on there for the waves can take you from the shore
Say no more, let the gray overtake you
You always knew one day this would break you
What you waiting for, a thank you? Move on
No one ever cared, and no one will when you're gone
This is long overdue
Said you'd always be here, but who you trying to fool?
You can see the writing on the wall speaking tongues
How much longer can you go with those old creaking lungs?
Walk toward the sun, evaporate with the wind
Your work here is done stubborn little emo kid
The world will go on, without you, it'll be lighter
And have one less preacher to the choir
Blowing smoke from your funeral pyre
Maybe that'll finally lift some wings a little higher
The end is here to stay, maybe not what you desired
But shh…close your eyes.
You look a little tired

[Verse 3: Bodi]
And what have you done?
What kind of man have you become?
What have you done?
What kind of man have you become?
And you can try to run away
But the devils that you face won't fade, yeah
You can try to run away
But they'll all catch up with you some way
You've got to make a change
Track Name: Atlas
[Verse Annotate1: Bodi]
I love life to death, and til the day that I rest
Every breath in my chest will give my best to the blessed
Souls, who don't know what they've got til it's ghost
Yesterday's smoke's broke by tomorrow's hope
They stand tall in the shadows of giants
Til the moment in the sun when they're touched by Midas
Walk no fear in the den of the lions
If I can't live like I'm dyin I'll die tryin'
From my perch under Earth, I've seen the death and the birth
Angels falling to dirt when they don't know their true worth
Burst courage and faith when best turns to worst
Kingdoms fall from heaven when their kings are placed first
Beginning to the end - cradle to the hearse
Forced to watch it all - I guess that's my curse
If a tree falls lone, then there isn't a sound
If Atlas falls, there isn't a ground

[Hook: Bodi]
And I can't give up and can't see them fall
And we evolved from dust into this free for all
Can't give up and can't see them fall
And we evolved from dust into this free for all (2x)

[Verse 2: Bodi]
All I ever wanted was to live in the moment
A single second on this sphere without the worry to hold it
No more promises broken, no more innocence stolen
No more floatin on hope when the present is golden
I can't turn my back when I see the palms open
I'll let this break me down before I hear more psalms spoken
Leave destiny to everyone for findin'
If I can't live like I'm dyin I'll die tryin'
When the chisel and stone found the gristle and bone
Humanity's tapestry once sewn was blown
Alone and on their own carving borders out of home
In the face of mercy shown barking orders from the throne
I tried to hide the diatribe that only divides
And shine a light on broken battle cries to visualize the blind
Opened Pandora's Box, there’s nothing inside
I'm lost and I know she's got something to hide

[Hook]

[Verse 3: Bodi]
It's the beauty in the struggle that validates the trouble
From the photographs of Hubble back to Babylon's rubble
The strongest muscle in the body is the heart
And that's the only thing that makes it not fall apart
When the march to compassion overtakes passive action
Dreams manifest and cease to be imagined
The journey never ends and the long road's windin'
If I can't live like I'm dyin I'll die tryin'
When the stars turn to dust and the sky falls down
And the last stand proud in a mushroom cloud
The past voices settle in eternity's echoes
The ground cover's smothered with the finals rose petals
I'll be right here in the same place
Cause at the end of the day we're all saved by grace
When history's erased, my memory of love
And human compassion is the reason I won't shrug

[Hook]
Track Name: Epilogue ft. Kristoff Krane & Jean Grae
[Intro]
When people speak at funerals
I usually like to be sitting in the back
That way when the sentimentality kicks in
I can get to the door quickly to vomit
I've always felt if you've got something to say
Spit it out while the bastard's still alive dammit

[Verse 1: Bodi]

I never thought the time would come when I'd be runnin outta time
To find the meaning in the grand design before I'm in a box of pine
Put my nose to grind, if it sets the globe atop my spine, it’s
What I chose it's fine, if it turns my back to serpentine
I'd be cool. Look it's hard enough
To make it through without another makin carbon dust
Tryna bring you down, so I die to lift you up
An ugly duck tryna smooth the ride (buckle up, but…)
I clutch fear like a gear shift
And hear this chorus crying help until my ears split
If I can steer this just a little more to positive
I'd go a happy man, achieving one accomplishment
And that's the truth. Despite the mellow drama
End this love letter dear world, comma
Thank you for the chance to do right
You're the reason that this kid is breathin new life

[Hook: Kristoff Krane]
Everything and Everyone I’ve ever loved
I love. Are living on and never gone and pumping through my Blood

[Verse 2: Kristoff Krane]
I can't imagine the position you were in to see me pissin in the wind
When I was fishin for a fix instead of kissing you
Instead of dealing with the pain the pain of missing my best friend
I lead myself into a big brickwall and bashed my selfhish head…
To see the person that you love the most detaching from their spirit
Knowing theres an inner voice but right now they won't hear it…
Grips my throat with angry hands and rings the neck that’s deep
In lost connection till my feeet are grounded in the grief- infection-
These moments only last for as long as we can make em
A portal to the past through the photographs we’ve taken
Each breathe I take reveals a memory into a cloud
Under a sun where you can hear the sky and ocean cry outloud—I’m sacred
The lessons I’ve been trying to teach
Are ones that I have yet to learn-face it, when you’re high-you sink
The older that I get the younger that I feel
The less I have to say and the more that I know I know how to heal

[Hook]

[Verse 3: Kristoff Krane]
Give me a seed, I'll show you how to cherish it
Find the dirtiest soil, dig a hole, and bury it
I no longer need a therapist
I'll just cry all winter on my own come back to the spring and there it is
I'm just a shadow in the wounded shell
Growing up a spiral staircase I know the life that cycle very well
A Carbon Carousel from miracles to funerals
She gave it all of her heart and he left us with some truth to hold
What a beautiful existence
From every lunar eclipse I've witnessed to every open wound I'm still licking
There's no difference between neural imprints
And the way that I see the external world appear as an image
Now I talk to myself from the perspective of God
I know that I'm right when I bet that I'm wrong
From death and beyond to the breath in my lungs
Every friend that I've lost becomes the red in my blood


[Verse 4: Jean Grae]
I mean everything that I've done, I mean everything that I've been
Baby every man that I've loved, maybe I've been loving through sin
Maybe I just love to be loved, then again not love from within
But I love every part of me artery skin
But the heart of me's mine
My veins are just lined up to my face and my body
Which are basically copies of the base on the knowledge to the basics of body
So it really means nothing when I'm gone don't mourn Jeanie
Just release me a song when I'm on you'll all see me
I'm infinitely infamous, this shell is an incident
Shit I'm held build that fits compelled to the realest spit
I'mma writer of fate denied of a daily departure
I'm the ride you can take when thinking whats to go farther
Yes further take liberties with words and symmetry
And I do paint vividly this world's identity
And I can't Hilary shit like it was deserved to me
And I'll never accept respect if it ain't earned by me

[Verse 5: Bodi]
Tough though it is, it's a beautiful struggle worth
Every ounce of muscle til the six feet of shoveled dirt
Til the hearse marches us to mother earth
Carried by the ones that we love til the bubble burst
Perched on a razor's edge, learn
To walk the fine line intertwinin death and birth
Search for a cure to reverse the worst curse
Certain nothing's worse than watching others leave first
Picture perfect world, well maybe not
But we got what we got until it all stops
Life is a quiz popped on us as kids
And when we learn to die's when we learn how to live
And if it's true that the molecules spinnin
Inside of us have been around us since the beginning
Then everything and everyone that we've ever loved
Are livin on and never gone and pumpin through our blood