The Ratatat EP

by Bodi

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Most of my 2013 was spent volunteering in orphanages in 7 countries (Vietnam, Cambodia, Nepal, Kenya, South Africa, Romania, Peru) for 1-2 months each. In addition to many hours of manual labor, helping with homework, and (repeatedly x infinity) getting schooled by the kids in soccer, I filmed and photographed a documentary about their lives and their caretakers lives. My goal was to learn about their lives in their own words: what makes them the most happy, what their dreams are, and how well-intentioned people can help in their lives the most.

When I had downtime, which was rare, I wrote a lot. Usually about the experiences in the orphanages, but sometimes it was lyrics: my best form of therapy.

Ratatat is one of my favorite groups in the world. I downloaded their discography and decided to piece together an EP from some of their instrumentals, inspired by my time on this trip and the countless lessons I learned from the incredible kids.

This is a mixtape. It's free. You can also donate money if you wish. Any donations you make for this album will be sent equally to each orphanage where I volunteered. 100% of it. I will not be keeping any money from this. Additionally, please support Ratatat's incredible music at

For more information on the orphanages your donations would support, please visit



released December 23, 2014

Produced by Ratatat.
All lyrics and vocals by Bodi.
Recorded, Mixed, and mastered by Bodi at The Elephant Room.
Cover Art and Photo by Bodi.
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Bodi Washington

Bodi, formerly Alexipharmic, has been making music since he started watching YO! MTV Raps in Cookie Monster pajamas. He has toured the United States several times, made tracks with Eyedea, P.O.S., Emancipator, Budo, Kristoff Krane, and performed with many more. 50% of all his album and merch sales are donated to Mercy Corps' relief efforts in the Congo. He loves you, them, and sometimes himself. ... more

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Track Name: One
You and I are dying - did you know that?
Cause I think if we really did then we wouldn't hold back
Anything we want to say, want to see, want to do
Want to get, want to give, before our lips blue, and
There's no flying, where we'll go that's
A myth to make heaven ever after, but it's here
Hell is here, too, named: hate and fear
God's not above, it's sittin in your mir
Mine too, and his and hers
I think you'd agree it's better we deserve
From each other - we suffer when we place
Our happiness in other people's hands to shape
Why wait to become what we're told we couldn't
Cause re-runs don't happen that often
We run once then it's time to book it
Yon sel lavi, one foot in the coffin

But it aint all awesome
A hundred times I've watched
People that I thought
Were saints turn goblin
So I step with caution
And trust when it's earned, not the cart before the oxen
Moonwalkin past the rest, but who's watchin
This too-often, smooth talkin criminal, the truth
Is I (i-i) should be walked past, too
I got a book of shadows that are way past, due
And I'm boxing, with em, too, a silhouette
Of myself, dance a pirouette
With the devil in my head, the angel in my bed
Is hell-bent on showing me heaven 'fore I'm dead
And I've said it's beautiful even when it isn't
Cause it is, but many times I almost made it finish
,But it's a gift, and that would ruin it
We're all cuckoo in this nest, and I, too, flew in it
- So let's lose our minds
In a hurry, cause worry is the glue that binds
The heart to the past and the head to the future
Sort of like playing roulette with a Lugar
No life after, outcome disaster
I'd rather capture happy right here
Give me that rapture, baby
You can't save me from an end, already drawing near

I'm falllllin
I'm fallllllin

It's all coming to a close
Sooner than we'd like, hold on for dear life
One third's gone to the sandman
Out of the blue, we're into the black, and
Between work, working out and TV
Texting and texting while we drive we gotta eat
Shit shower shave - breathe, and repeat
And try to find peace, so that's, two outta three
So we can give the third degree
To father time and keep looking for a sign
Or meaning, or realize the divine
Is every second breathing
Every heart beating
When we depart, all we're leaving
Behind's inspiration for others to climb
Some sunshine in the middle of the dark
Yesterday's gone. today's when we start
Track Name: Day
Verse 1:
Many times I thought I'd never live to see another day
Prayin that my matter gray would release another way
Instead of splatter from the chatter in the head, mad hatter
Stuck in Jacob's Ladder, but I kept the wolves at bay
By facing where they lay, placing light in shade
Cause when the monster's face is made, it loses strength
Shake away the chains, hear the music that they make
Until they break, so I…stay awake until the wake, wait
- You ever notice
When it's hopeless is when the goal you're working on is closest?
The lowest low without a rope is comatose on overdose
Of broken hope and clear the smoke and focus with no hocus pocus
Needed for the steepest zenith to be reached, cause what's beneath is
Blood, sweat, and tears, that gives victory the sweetest
Taste. So lace up the boots
And face love and truth or else what's the use?
If the shots are as real as a 21 gun salute
The hoops we keep jumping through are useless

I was told by one of the greatest pimps that ever lived
His name is called...God...
That if you know what you got
Then you ain't got much

Many times I hoped that tomorrow would be better
Dependent on the forecast to change the weather
Depending on another to not let me drown
Deep ending in the shallow end, upside down
Sometimes we need a medic to heal our wounds
And sometimes we gotta stitch our own tombs
And I know it, cause I got the scars to prove it
You can hear em bleeding through the speakers through the music (ah)
Knocked down to a worm's eye view
Is needed to appreciate the birds I flew with
Shoes made of concrete, wings made of tin
Wavin at the giants that are standing in your shadow
And not steppin on anyone's shoulder blades
Or caught in games the third rock boulder plays
Colder days around the corner, that's true
But we can make it warmer, that's cool

You're not supposed to know what you're gonna do with the rest of your life yet
You're doing what you think's best
You're following through on what you think's best and that's what you should be doing
You had a plan, you're executing it, what's wrong with that?
But you gotta give it a chance
You gotta give yourself time
You can't beat yourself up because you're taking chances on things
So don't start giving up on what you set forward to do at the beginning
Cause that's gonna get you nowhere, I can promise you that.

Verse 3:
And I'm falling down a thousand times for every one that I succeed
And I concede it's foolish, clueless I may be but I believe
That I can reach a level high as eyes can lead, desires, dreams
Combine to seize the day and reach where sky and the horizon meet
And keep marchin on, sparkin dawn with the ammunition
Of the mission that you're livin's given me a brand new vision
And a glimpse into the riskin that you wager when you're wishin
And decisions that you make with strength as great as atom fission
Track Name: Everything
Left, left, left, right, left
Step, step, step, high step
Rest, rest, rest, strike, rest
Breath, breath, breath, light, death

Death is coming for us and it doesn't matter where we stand
We began or what we planned or if we had the upper hand
Or try to scram and run from fear or keep it in the rearview mir
Or steer it clear from stopping cold, we're moving on a oneway road
Exposed, the wrong way, the light inside the tunnel's end's
A semi truck in dead of night to crash the party where we spend
Our time like a commodity, a never-ending shopping spree
And free to spend it how we choose, but we all will always lose
So what we trying to prove, and who we trying to prove it to?
Forbidden fruit we're products of, maybe why we all are bruised
What's stopping you from chasing truth before your time to vamoose
The noose and concrete boots aint shaking loose they're getting tighter
And consumption's the fire that eats us alive
Wired to the hive, too late we decide
We're addicted to the highs from the things that we buy
Hanging in and on the line until the day we flat________

The feelings that we harbor 'shorely' make us capsize
And drown in the drink, our holy water used to baptize
Sin, never we win, til we begin, to see our flaws
As power to change, not as the stains, of a vengeful, god
Damnit, this planet's gassed up, so we can it
So it's warmer, but we manage to be colder to each other
Than the days that killed the mammoth and hide behind a screen
And use our thumbs to say things we don't really mean
Jim Beam, Jack and Coke, big dreams, blackened hope
Listening to the smoke, Sistine where we wrote
An epitaph - that used to list the lives that we touched
But robots don't really die…
We just rust

Chorus (x4)
Left, left, left, right, left
Step, step, step, high step
Rest, rest, rest, strike, rest
Breath, breath, breath, light, death

And we're on to the next
Fish on the chessboard, pawns in the net
Looking at the neighbors front lawn from the fencepost
Ven Diagram all our flaws then we get ghossssssst
Or broke, whichever's primero
Cause everything's a competition, on the straight and narrow
Until we realize we're sparrows
Singing caged songs to the fish in a barrel

Everything I gotta get
Consuming is my drug and so I gotta get a hit
I mean I gotta get my fix to fix the empty pieces
In my species so I need this or I'm gonna feel like shit
Lord Jesus, I feed this when I see a new commercial
For a product, happy people, I don't got it, so my happy hurdle's
Cleared when I buy this, bank is minus
High is one day, but antibiotics don't clear a virus
Cause when the next new-new is revealed
It opens up my dopamine, no hope I mean, we healed
My track marks in the snow to the sto', I left em yesterday
I know because the chills I still got, waiting for the Black Friday deals
For real, for two days
Waited patient 'for' the 'station' everybody 'plays'
My American 'duty' I answered the 'call'
It's a shame that I can't fit them all in my grave
Track Name: Will
It's like I'm ready to jump, but I aint ready to fall
Like I'm ready to fly, but I'm afraid I will stall
Like the meaning is gone, but I aint answered the call
Like I'm ready to quit, without hitting the wall

But I will never give up, nah I will never give
I will never give up, nah I will never
I will never give up, nah I will never give
I will never give up, give up, give (up)

Verse 1:
Down the rhythm of life with precision
It runs like the pistons in Formula 1 engines
I trust my decisions as much as religion
And rush to revisions in a book already written
So what choice do I have, but try to find the right path
Through the mines designed to blind the foresight for the hind path
Out of sight
Out of mind
Out of fight
Out of time
How to climb the day you find the summit's always out of view:
You can do one out of two things
Blame the past
Until you're blue in face and wave the flag of white
Then fade to black like mood rings
.Or keep on marching knowing you will never reach the peak
But peek the head up through the clouds
And keep the ground beneath the feet
Which means you seek your dreams in truth and leap above the obstacles
And bow your head for no one, though the steps are steep impossible
Is nothing that you worry bout, nothing of concern to you
An eagle flying higher than the crows who work to murder you
Vultures, let em circle, let em have a feast
Those who stand on shoulders of the giants only do it
Cause their own two feet are too, too weak
Too meek to seek beyond the heap
Of bucket crabs who grab and claw and pull before they go to sleep

Verse 2:
.No point to snatch a crown of king or queen cause that hill's
Littered with bodies, on meadows turned to landfills
Of royalty of past trapped behind the looking glass
Who grasp at straws to find a crack before the rabbit hole is snapped
Shut without a hope of coming back, their depth is bottomless
No rock to break their fall, on a quest to find accomplices
For misery, but we're all on the same journey
All seeking happiness before we see the gurney
All seeking love, so it's up to every one of us
To lift, cause we're all in the same abyss
With everything to risk, and nothing left to lose
No matter what we try in the end we all do

Verse 3:
Nothing left to prove and everything to gain
We can do anything, so what's a little pain in the end game
It don't matter one bit
A tower doesn't fall when it loses one brick
So who, where, when, and what's to be afraid of
When legends and the universe are everything we're made of
The pain is a paint brush, our veins are decayed rust
Framed to refrain through the painters that made us
Pieces of the master, masterpieces in training
.Chistling away to help those remaining
,To know when the road roamed grows more treacherous
Than the Yungas in an earthquake and monsoon we better this
All - by knowing we could fall any hour
Any minute, any second, what is fragile gives us power
To devour the demons, devil dancing in our limbic
Turning cynics to believers, give reality to mystics
Til we're finished - the work never is
But no better gift than weather this shit storm we're left to live
And use it as the fuel for the fire from the match
To illuminate the path at the start so the next kids going through it, too

Will never give up, nah they will never give
They will never give up, nah they will never give
They will never give up, because you've lived

Verse 4:
Iron with the will, like a lion on the kill
Never falling, never folding, never holding onto doubt that you will
Keep on going, never slowing, never knowing where the finish
Line is, mind is made that you won't cave and raise the finger to the limits
Gave and fate is fake and failure takes your strength
From good to great and wave goodbye to hate
And fear because they both create a slave
And chains are made to break, so shake em til they make
The two step music of life - we all learn
Burn the pages of your past that never will return
Turn the mazes of your path to better, still we earn
Our stripes and stars, cause while it's hard, it's always worth it
Though serpents on the surface try to strike their venom's worthless
We're all servants to attachments and desires that will ratchet
Up the tension sending us into the void if we let em
Never ending, never resting, you will never give up
Nah, nah, nah, nah, nah you will never give up.
Track Name: Be
Verse 1:
Watched, yesterday slip past
Today spent trying to get that back
But you can't grasp what moves light speed
So perhaps letting go is all I…need
To just be…to just breathe…we
Talk about killing
But in the end whose blood's spilling
And yours so good love willing
With you for a long, long, time
So this is how magic feels
Pushing on until we push daffodils
Grave mass appeal, for the mask I peel
,One skin cell at a time
To show you that the scars and the wrinkles and the blemishes
And beauty of the stars that twinkle in the nebulas
Is equal, there's no difference
,Both atoms spin on long after we're finished
So what are limits?
When we've witnessed time's beginning and everything since
Stones that are thrown at the rock of gibraltar won't make, dents
- So dense I may be
But I believe in good in every single seed
Of every family tree
- So greener, maybe, on the fences other side
Keep my eyes on my weeds and my head in the skies
.Open wide for the lightning to strike
With fire in the eyes, make tomorrow...bright

And we know, we know
We don't make it out alive, live, live
So why lie, lie, lie
So why try, try, try
Cause we've held on for too long, now
Just to watch it all disappear
And tomorrow we could be gone
How's that for a motive to live right here?
So hold steady
So hold steady while
Hold steady while shooting for the moon
So hold steady
So hold steady while
Hold steady while shooting for the moon
And writing your name across the cosmos
Cause god knows we'll be there soon
Cause god knows
Cause god knows
Cause god knows we'll be there soon
We live an endless encore
Cause god knows
Cause god knows
When the curtains will finally draw close

Verse 2:
I don't really sleep anymore
Eyes bloodshot feels like I forgot
How to be myself
And I see my health
Start to flee, I've felt
When I breathe, I melt
It's a feeble wealth
All that we are dealt
And I'm too proud to say that I need
. But I could use some
To help me thaw from this cold world where I grew numb
Gruesome, dog eat dog, kill or be killed
But I'm a product of the world I build
And "will wright"
And still life
Is still bright even in the darkness
. Spark this light
Or electric sheep I'll dream, as an android heartless
.Grim reaping what I sew, and this is why the harvest
Is fruitless at times - cause it's a bear market
But that's bull
Is the glass half empty or half full?
It's both
And success is learning how to hold em close
And not flinch or fold or choke
,I'm only whole when I go for broke (fade broke)

Bridge 2:
So hold tight
Cause you're in for the ride of your life

Verse 3:
Now is the time when I can choose which plan
To pursue: stand, or fall in the quicksand
Move through the minefield on the tip toes
Or knowing that I'll blow still smell the primrose
Garden, beg a pardon, there's no bartering with karma
Carve a part of paradise before the pair of dice will harm ya
Start to lose it, start a movement, helping others moving through it
Be as fluid as the river where we're floating til the ocean
Forms a tidal wave erodin, lonely islands we've become
Runnin back to where it's done, exactly where it all begun
Losin track of where the sunrays fade into our lung's
Baited breath and fated steps in shades of death there's only (one)
No matter where we come from, no matter can be destroyed
No need to fear the day we work to avoid
All we are is all there is, ever was, or will be
All we are is broken cells united, we're already free
Track Name: Alright
Verse 1:
Well it's been quite a trip
- I took some hits
- I'd be remiss if I said I didn't slip
- A time or two hundred
Run it from summit
To plummet
Repeated over and over
To learn
To rise from the fall and to love it
Uh, Name a mistake, I've done it
Thrown rocks and pointed fingers
Though I wish I were above it
My hands are plenty dirty
And the same hope I float on
Has been the thing that made me drown
When action's something separate from it
Half my life I couldn't stomach who I was
- Two times the other half wished I believed in god above
But I don't
And I hope it understands
That I'd rather build change instead of folding my, hands
See I've broken some plans and some hearts
To try to find light in the dark
And fight to do right from the start
I burn who I try to save
But no lifeguard or boat can shake us from the waves
Or breakers
That'll take us
To the end of, our, days
So say your goodbyes
Or decide the impermanence
Is what gives it meaning
Meaning for every heart beating
The fleeting's the perfect gift
No light without dark without light
Or flight without fall without flight
So life without death isn't life
- Right?
Well that doesn't help
Or make it easier to hold your head
When pictures on a shelf
Of loved ones that are gone smile back at you
We're passing through
It never gets easier, but it's something that we have to do
Now: we're all products of the same star
So where we're from and where we'll go is all the same, our
In one another is the only thing that keeps our
From busting at the seams, or so it seams
- I've learned that nothing can replace
Being present, being human, as the lines across the face
Start to move in
Carving ruins
Youth I'm losin
As the sands
Of time, erode the edifice
And slip through these hands of mine
I've learned no matter how hard you try to run
From your secrets and lies, one day they're gonna catch you
I've learned unless you are honest with yourself
It's pretty tough to be so with anyone else
That love will be dependent less it's met with self respect
And if there isn't trust and faith, those walls will keep us held in check
Or set the weight in others just to fill a void in you
And you can't love yourself if you avoid the ugly, too
And what's true is we're all in pursuit of the same
End conclusion: how to dance in the middle of the rain
To sustain a little happy in the middle of this travesty
And weave a little thread in the middle of this tapestry
I've learned that empathy's your pain in my heart
- Not fully understood, but a good place to start
I've learned there's limits, but most are just figments
And everything is beautiful, even when it isn't


Til the day comes where we greet the light
We will not run, we will see the fight
Through to the end, cause we only get one
(One life) everything will be all right
Til the day comes when we greet the light
We will not run, we will see the fight
Through to the end, cause we only get one
(One day) everything will be all right

Verse 2:
Another day comes, another day goes
And on, on, and on, on, and on it goes
Til we're old and we're gray
And we start to decay
And the writing on the wall's for the skyward toes
And we find our home where we scribe our poems:
In the minds of those holy lives we've known
Til the mileage shows and the island goes
Where the silence grows and the eyelids...close
Til we can't hold on
And we grind those bones for just one more song
Wrote in one more dawn
Yeah we all float on
Cause the river flows though the boat is gone
- So our soul lives on forever - and that won't fade
Just a drop in the bucket, yeah, but we all make waves
So goodnight, but never goodbye
Forever in each other's hearts and minds we reside
When we realize
We've all got a piece of god inside
Disguised as separate drops of rain
We ride
The waves, together, make the tide

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